So all of a sudden I'm on my way out the door, and I'm kinda freaking out. Well ok not freaking out but I'm getting a little anxious. I think the worst part of the thing is the waiting. Its just that I have been waiting for over 3 years for this big adventure, and now all of a sudden its time for me to get on a plane. Everyone says that the time before your trip will just fly by and you'll be there before you know it and I guess their half right at least. The days themselves took forever, but the overall was just gone.
I've found that there are a lot of things that you really don't think about until that date is staring you in the face. Things like what is it going to be like when you walk through the airport terminal and have to look back through the security gate to wave at your mom for the last time is half a year. Or what its going to be like to have one of those I-want-my-mommy moments and have your mommy be on the other side of the world. Or when you think of all the little things that you really only can do to your family, like stealing food off their plates or run into your moms room and cry about all the boy problems that your having. Your forced to think about what your going to do to replace those things. The people that your going to have to find to fill the voids that those people in your life filled. And then you throw the language into the mix and you think about all the things that you wont know how to say. all the ways you can't express yourself.
And then the fact that I've never been the new kid. I've gone from Rosemount Elementary to Rosemount Middle to Rosemount High. Always with the same core group behind me. My circle of friends just seemed to morph and expand to the needs of the time. But all of a sudden I have to learn to start from scratch. And I don't quite know how to do that. But that's kind of why I did this right? To learn how to make new people, to form new bonds without the normal crutches I've relied on forever.
I'm not that worried. I'm just ready for this adventure to begin. Cause thats what it is. My first big adventure.
Thanks for reading everyone!
Morgan
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have an amazing time!! and just remember your "crutches" love you and will be here if you need anything!
ReplyDeleteAnd the adventure begins. I talked to your dad yesterday, after you did. He was quite happy to hear that you have settled in. I am sure that the new people you meet will find you as nice and charming as I always have. Thanks for the picture and the note. It brought me back to those days when you were four. You'd see me and your eyes would light up and you would run over and give me a big hug. Never underestimate the value and the power they hug from someone you love and trust.
ReplyDeleteYour world is becoming much larger. I'm a little bit envious.
Take care
Bruce